This is the back of my head right now. HELP!!!
my tits now wobble when I brush my teeth. thank u progesterone
I’m currently just taking 10mg Androcur and 4mg Estradiol. I will see my doctor again in May. Then I will ask her about progesterone.
I’ve searched the internet for informations because (at least here in Germany) there is a huge controversy about the usefullness of progesterone. Many say that it’s totally useless, others say that it’s essential for a successfull transition. The same for androcur. For some people it’s causing more harm than it helps and others are very happy with it. I’m on HRT for almost a month and I don’t feel anything yet. No positive and no negative effects yet.
It’s incredibly hard to find scientific articles about HRT because there are almost no studies on HRT for transsexuals. There are a few on post-menopause women, but it’s under debate if this is like an apple-orange comparison.
When I talk to people and ask them about their HRT, they all have different drugs and dosages. So the only way to find out if something helps you with your transition is to try it out and have patience.
I also have to find something to fight against my hair loss. People are suggesting diffrent things and it seems I have to try them out to see what’s useless and what’s helping. Right now I’m only using normal Shampoo that says “for better hair growth and stronger roots” and this morning I had the brush full of hair again like every morning after the shower.
If you have any tips, please let me know.
I hate everyone who says that Embryonic Stem Cell Research is wrong. I fucking hate people that are this stupid.
Embryonic Stem Cell Research could save million lives. Cloning could save million lives. But no, retarded people think that it’s evil to clone cells and to do embryonic stem cell research. FUCK YOU ALL!
Christians say: “We are Pro Life! So you are not allowed to kill an embryo that COULD turn into a human. We don’t care if millions of existing people die, that’s gods will. Science is wrong! Save the embryos, let everyone that could be saved through stem cell research die!”
And I say: FUCK YOU, YOU STUPID ASSHOLE!
I laughed at the end when Bush was talking.
"We as a society should not create life to destroy it." Hmm we are raising cattle all the time just to kill it later again. Creating life and destroying it. But that’s somehow good. I don’t understand stupid people… I really don’t. How do stupid people even work?
These are all real arguments, I’ve heard most of them myself in real life. I can’t believe how fucking stupid religious people are :(
Christians are stupid. Fuck religion. All of them.
Jaclyn Glenn is really awesome. She’s intelligent and beautiful.
Check out her YouTube Channel
Maybe it’s a bit too early for this post because 2013 isn’t over yet, but I still want to write a little summary:
January was quite stressful. My wife and I were looking for a new apartment and we had to leave ours on 1rst of February. Luckily, we found the perfect apartment just right in time.
February was a somewhat normal month. The moving in the beginning, some problems with the old landlord and a full month without a kitchen. Good thing that it was freezing outside so we could keep our groceries on the balcony and we got a small oven to cook stuff.
In March I started to realize that I can’t live like this anymore and that I want to get more informations about this transsexuality thing to finally understand what I really am. I told this to my wife and got full support from her. I loved how insightful my wife was and everything was just perfect. Because of this I got more selfconfidence and started to tell people on the internet about this trans-thing.
My live changed drastically in April. My wife told me that she fell in love with someone else and that she couldn’t immagine a marriage with a woman. At the same time, I got many new friends over the internet and my selfconfidence kept growing. In the middle of the month, my wife left me. My world collapsed. These were the hardest few weeks in my life. I was alone. The first time in SEVEN YEARS.
Near the end of May I had my public outing on facebook. Being alone was now everyday life for me and I kinda got used to it. Sometimes I could still hear my wife calling me from the living room but when I checked, noone was there. I’m still crying right now because of this.
On the first day of June my life as a woman started. I shaved off my 7 years old beard, got a new haircut and went out in public as a woman for the very first time. I got closer to a very special friend. She was with me in public on this day and without her all the things that happened since then wouldn’t be possible. I went to public as a woman almost every weekend and at first it was kinda weird and everyone was just staring at me but during the next months I learned to ignore it and now I even like it when people look. There were some important milestones in this month, like the birthday party of my best friend where all our other friends met Nina for the first time. The amount of new friends kept growing.
In July I had my first date with a guy. I went to the therapist for the first time and met new friends there. Some of them are really close to me today. If I remember correct, this was also the month I first met one of my new best female friends for the first time in real life. I made my first porn video this month xD
In August I started to go to clubs almost regulary. Nothing really special happened here. Of course I missed my wife a lot. Every day. But I was also quite happy because I had many new friends, lived my live as a woman and I started with my IPL treatment this month. My second porn video was made in this month. My selfconfidence increased a lot again because of this.
During September the amount of new friends increased again and some of them are really important to me today. I went to clubs almost every weekend with my new friends. I got better with makeup and fashion. I went to curt to apply for my legal name and gender change.
October was a quite buisy month when I look at my calendar. I went to the endocrinologist, many clubs, therapist and had a many apartment showings because I had to look for a next tenant.
In November I finally got my hormones and I finally was able to start with my HRT. This was also the first month without a job. I already didn’t went to work in October but since November I am officially unemployed. My sister has married and for the first time in SEVEN YEARS I was alone on the 17th. This would have been our 7th anniversary and on the 18th would have been our 2nd marriage anniversary. I moved to a new apartment at the end of November.
Now it’s December. Nothing special has happened yet and I don’t think this will change. I wish every day that my wife would return to me but the chance of this happening is almost zero. My wife returning would be like winning the lottery. But while I gave up playing the lottery a long time ago, I won’t give up fighting for my wife. Never.
I hope I didn’t forget anything important ^^
I want to thank all my friends for everything they did for me during this hard and eventful year. I really love you all! Without you, I would be dead. You were there when my wife left me. You were there when my depressions dragged me down into the bottomless pit. You were there whenever I needed you. You are the best friends someone can have. And I’m crying again right now because I love you all sooo much!
My plans for the next year: hoping for a miracle. I have to get rid of my body hair if I ever want to go swimming again in next summer. I also need a miracle for my wife returning back to me. I want to find a new good job (I also need a miracle for this) and I expect my legal name and gender change to happen in January or February. I hope that the HRT has the effects I hope it has. Like changing my male body hair into female body hair and stopping the hair on my head from falling out. I’m doomed if this won’t happen during the next few months.
Tut mir leid für meine Leser, die kein Englisch können, aber diesen langen Text werde ich nicht übersetzen ^^ Google Translate kann helfen aber weil mein Englisch nicht perfekt ist (genauso wenig wie mein Deutsch, desshalb kommt auch nur Müll bei raus, wenn ich meine deutschen Texte ins Englische übersetzen lasse xD) wird größtenteils nur Müll bei raus kommen xD Aber ich denke einiges wird man trotzdem verstehen :-)